hahaha i don’t even know what movie this is from

makes me laugh. hahahhaah

if i should die; before i wake.

1. What unfinished business would you leave behind? i would not return home to tell my family how much i love them, i would not see the snow which should come my way tomorrow, i would not get my driver’s license, i would not turn twenty, i would not get a chance to visit wroxton or london, i wouldn’t see my amazing cousin get married, wouldn’t see my little baby turn five – so many more.
2. What would you want to say to those you love? i apologize for being stubborn, for being needy, for everything being about me. i apologize for not doing everything in my power to give you everything you desire and deserve. i apologize for causing you pain and i wish that you would remember any and all of our good times together.
3. What would people remember you for? hahahaah my sense of humor of course. my sarcasm, my dumb laugh, people would reminisce about how i don’t have my license, i like to think i make people laugh, even if they’re laughing at me, i hope people remember me for being myself, for wanting the best for the world, for being a person filled with positive energy – for the most part. i know they’ll remember me for my networking and my love for gerard.
4. Would you have regrets? the absolutely only regret i would have would be to not travel the world with family and friends. regrets aren’t really my thing. i mean the choices i made in the past are what put me where i’m at right now – and i like it. i prefer thinking of my choices and decisions as learning experiences – i think of how to be different in the future – not regret.
5. Would you think you spent your time wisely? not really no. i should drop out of college and travel the world.
6. How many lives would you have help positively change? i would like to think that i haven’t given anyone a reason to change in a negative way, positivity is key. being happy is what keeps us going, i always tell people to smile, i’m not sure how many people i have influenced, however i do hope that there is at least one out there.
7. Would you have let your talents go to waste? i wish i knew what they were; however hell naaaaah bro
8. Would someone be inspired by your passing to seize the moment? that’s a weird question. i’m not sure.
9. What and who would make you smile in the face of your death? my baby brother, my mom, my dad, my brother

took this from winkthinks! check out the site!! :)

what a day to be alive eh?

NEWWWWBEEEEE

sunshine.

come my way.

england – one day my love, one day.

thanks to the man himself; fabio

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i wish we were there together.

all of us.

i’m glad you’re enjoying yourself buddy.

we miss you.

clean slate.

word of the day:

crestfallen –[krest-faw-luhn] - adjective

1.	dejected; dispirited; discouraged.

2.	having a drooping crest or head.

if you know me, chances are – you know that i don’t have a license.

however, that will soon not be the case. nineteen days kids, nineteen days.

keep your fingers crossed for me!

any who, due to this fucking circumstance, i frequently commute by train,

the commute ranges from about 40-50 minutes, sometimes even 60, so during that time, i have found something to take my mind off of things, hahhaha i’m laughing – but you can’t laugh at me:

i now read the dictionary on the train.

lol & i just found my thesaurus today, so i’m pretty excited about it.

this weekend has been shitty, friday felt so freakin long, i got home at 6 and worked late; and made almost no money; today i semi cleaned my room, did a hell of a lot of french homework, baked a cake & cup cakes, tried a new [sucky ass] recipe for frosting, and didn’t work.

my mind has been in an unhappy zone recently.

i know why

however, chances are – your guess is wrong.

i need to get out of my house; asap.

it will happen in its time.

the words of my online valentine, levi is someone who i have connected with over the internet, i’ve come to considering him a friend.

check out one of his blogs, 5starhiphop [he's got fab taste in music]

i, as well – will prevail.

i will get back on top of things, perky and happy as in the past

i will surprise those around me with happiness.

infallibility.

i’m heaven sent, don’t you dare forget.

i’m heaven sent,
don’t you dare forget.
I am all you’ve ever wanted,
what all the other boys all promised.
Sorry I told. I just needed you to know.

I think in decimals and dollars.
I am the cause to all your problems,
shelter from cold. We’re never alone.
Coordinate brain and mouth.
Then ask me what’s it like to have myself so figured out.
I wish I knew.

I hope this song starts a craze.
The kind of song that ignites the airwaves.
The kind of song that makes people glad
to be where they are,
with whoever they’re there with.
This is war.
Every line is about,
who I don’t wanna write about anymore.
Hope you come down with something
they can’t diagnose, don’t have the cure for.
Holding on to your grudge.
Oh it’s so hard to have someone to love.
And keeping quiet is hard.
’cause you cant keep a secret if it never was a secret to start.
At least pretend you didn’t wanna get caught.

We’re concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, we’re throwing the fight.
But I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe,
I just wanna believe, in us.

Oh, we’re so c-c-c-c-c-controversial.
We are entirely smooth.
We admit to the truth,
we are the best at what we do.
And these are the words you wish you wrote down.
This is the way you wish your voice sounds,
handsome and smart.
Oh my tongue’s the only muscle on my body
that works harder than my heart.
And its all from watching TV.
And from speeding up my breathing.
Would’nt stop if i could.
Oh it hurts to be this good.
You’re holding on to your grudge.
Oh it hurts to always have to be honest with the one that you love.
Oh, so let it go.

We’re concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, we’re throwing the fight.
But I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe,
I just wanna believe.
We’re concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, we’re throwing the fight.
But I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe,
I just wanna believe, in us.

This is the grace that only we can bestow.
This is the price you pay for loss of control.
This is the break in the bend,
this is the closest of calls.
This is the reason your alone,
this is the rise and the fall.

We’re concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, we’re throwing the fight.
But I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe,
I just wanna believe.
We’re concentrating on falling apart.
We were contenders, we’re throwing the fight.
But I just wanna believe, I just wanna believe,
I just wanna believe, in us

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i want to change the way i’ve been living my life.

i want it more spontaneous.

i will make it happen.

i get my license in 19 days.

thank you God <3

chocolate rain.

you’re awesome. i wanna rip your face off and wear it on my birthday

hahahahahha

thats a piece from last year; i ran across it from a blog i frequently check

itoodreamincolorandrhyme

win.