what happens when you’re living in your future

i’m on my something-th hour of work today, wednesdays through saturdays are fun, generally they’re my doubles, and i can’t say that i mind it all too much. my days consist of mingling with the strangers that enter my home, with patrons that for the most part, have become friendlier than strangers, the fact that i live in a restaurant used to feel so glass half empty, yet the older i get, the more i appreciate it i think. through the years that i’ve spent here, maybe even just sitting, listening, eating – not doing anything at all, i’ve seen so much, heard so much, learned so much. i am super grateful in a way – maybe not to the moon and back, because it is a marriage that both my parents took on, they literally work 24/7 – non stop, all the time. thinking and working and creating. and that might be the one thing i would change about living in a restaurant, if i could of course, maybe one day.. maybe one day.

but anyway, as i’m sitting here, thinking about how many posts i have written, after not writing a while.

generally – it’s an “I’M BACK” post, today, i’m just going with the flow – i missed writing.

and i missed reading as well…. i’ve just reread some posts from 2010 and it’s truly amazing what this blog does for me, it’s like a time capsule of all things annakay

the good and the bad, and i like it, i like it alot.

my life recently has been beyond words amazing. i’m in the best place in my life that i have been to this day, and it’s been like this for almost 10 months. TEN MONTHS. thats almost a year. almost 365 days that i’ve been ear to ear in smiles.. granted some days shit hits the fan a little, but sooner than later my smile is back, thanks to a very very special someone of course.

you’ve already met him through the previous entries i have posted. he is gentle, and warm, and strong, and smart, and funny, and tough and sexy and more and better than a man that i would personally design. not a minute goes by without him crossing my mind.

life is good.

as of right now, i am managing my family’s restaurant, i am living day by day, no worries.

my degree came in the other day – i’m nervous to touch it, i mean, it’s the most expensive paper that i’ll ever own. pfft. i can’t wait to hear from my grad schools. i’m ready to conquer my classes and get that masters degree. sooner than later. fo’ sho’.

let’s refresh my memory

9:39am this beautiful sunday morning, i am laying in my bed in sweatpants and a sweatshirt, rereading posts i’ve written in ’11 – the ones that i’ve left public for right now.. 

yesterday i decided to make many of my entries private, for serious reasons to reset this precious keepsake, to remind myself of who i’ve become over the years, it’s really nice.

today i woke up next to my most handsome man, a genuine gentleman, one who has my heart and is caring for it better than i could have ever realistically imagined.

five months today!

<3

wine & dine later when he comes back from work

for now – time to paint, i have many assignments i need to get to

borrowed.

“pursue your dreams, make goals for yourself, be honest with those around you, be spontaneous, live in the moment, keep on achieving, never give up, pick yourself up when you fall, don’t let anything slip through your fingers and get rid of everything that’s bad for you, and than breathe the sweetest air of being alive”

make it happen [ialeks]

thumbs up.

my mind is in a place it hasn’t been in, in a damn long time – i don’t mind it.

it’s literally craving all the little, wonderful details of life – all of the happy, itty bitty – nonchalant everyday details – small things – that make life so so good.

i’m juiced up on candy and coffee – i’ve been up since 7, so that may be the reason for my strong urge to skip my midterm and go strolling across my campus – or better yet, jump on a train and head towards the city

i’m feeling rather andventurous today

although i’m fully aware of the fact that TODAY i can’t bail on my midterm, i’m looking forward to escaping reality a bit this week – once my exams are over, i plan on indulging in being a free spirit ;p

i have rihanna’s “we fell in love” video on loop – it’s probably played 23 times in the last ten minutes – you catch my drift?

ps – i’m back on facebook – but i found being sucked in again – therefore, a few minutes ago i deleted the app from my mobile, must control my usage

i control facebook – it does not control me.

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incase you haven’t noticed – fall is in full effect; colorful leaves and all – i’m seriously wanting a flower.

or a ray of sunshine… something along those lines.

nah’m sayin?

watch this video. and don\’t do drugs.

stressed.

can’t deny the fact that i’ve felt butchered since school started.

i don’t think i’ve ever had so much work expected of me in my life – i’m keeping up, but barely.

between the commute, waking up early, doing work, working, eating – i’ve become so anti social.

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BUT i’ve learned to concentrate and get shit done in starbucks – so at least i’m surrounded by people most of the time

today’s agenda includes, but is not limited to:

de tocqueville, federalist no. 10, howl, thoreau – readings & summaries.

completion/write up of my physics lab

serious studying for both physics & theories of personality

i’ve got about six hours for this ish

BYE.

difference.

its been a damn long time since i’ve sat down to write out whats inside.

the last few months have been one hell of a ride – ups and downs, twists & turns.

that’s life.

i’ve been super sick this week, experienced a few things i’ve never experienced in my life.

i’m okay.

i really, truly enjoy learning new things about myself & others.

curiosity killed the cat

however, i do wish some things were ‘kinder’ – if that makes sense.

today should have been the first day of my last semester in undergraduate university – unfortunately, due to the damage caused by irene, classes now begin on thursday. i am ritually preparing myself for the gre exam on september 17, doing my best to focus & understand key concepts of the damn standardized test -_-

fingers crossed; we’ll see what happens.

plans for the future include applying to my master’s & phd programs – & getting in! ha… applications are due by january 17, so i’ve still got some time :x

also: i’m done with the search for mister right.

it seems that my search has been long terminated – i am ready to live by no plan.

hoping for the best, expecting the worst.

maybe my plan has been all wrong – get married by 23, 2 kids by 25 – maybe it’s not how it’s supposed to be.

time will tell.

i’m ready for some fun.

who needs a man – when you’ve got men ;]