like it was yesterday

how i wish i were back on that coast.

instead, i’m tackling precious powerpoint slides for my schools of psychology and medical psychology class, as well as two ten page papers, a case study for abnormal psych & a case study for art therapy

life’s nice though

i’m enjoying it




spending all weekend with my family, feasting on amazingly good eats and reminiscing the old days from the past, i was reminded of many artists i used to listen to as a young girl – anita lipnicka being one of my favorites.

if you don’t know Polish, google it – the translation gets the point across.

diabel i bog:

opadły mgły, skończyła się noc
i nagle świt przywrócił Ci wzrok
coś nie jest tak jak miało być
w życiu Twym
zgubiłeś się w tysiącu dróg
zgubiłeś sens najdroższych słów
zaklęty krąg obcych rąk
osaczył cię

gdy nie masz już sił
by dalej iść
w siebie spójrz

pozwól sercu prowadzić cię
poprzez światło i cień
poprzez słońce i deszcz
chmurę myśli za siebie rzuć
nie potrzebna ci jest
nie potrzebna by czuć

tak łatwo dziś stracić swą twarz
i z dnia na dzień
kimś innym się stać
poskładać kłamstwo
z samych prawd
i głosić je
diabeł i bóg jeden dzielą stół
przy stole dzielą Cię na pół
obaj tak samo śmieją się
wołając imię Twe

gdy nie masz już sił
by dalej iść
w siebie spójrz


go listen to more of her stuff, she’s great.

already gone

i’m in bed, i just cleaned the room a little bit – i’m slightly hungry, the restaurant has opened, therefore i think i’ll go order something, i’m thinking lamb? but it’s only 1 in the afternoon, idk once i go down there, i’ll figure something out. but anyway, i’ve got z100 on the radio, i rarely listen to there station, they replay songs too often for my taste.. but a song is playing – which i havent heard yet, and i actually like it – i’m impressed, it’s by Kelly Clarkon, who i wouldn’t say is my favorite, but i like how mellow the song is, words are strong. good for her.

remember all the things you wanted; we were always meant to say goodbye

crazy how things change overtime, i’m not sure if you’ve seen my previous blog posts, but i have a few pictures of what my room looks like, and well, right by my bed i’ve got a wall full of pictures – i like having them here, they take me back to many different times in my life; the winter that i dyed my hair dark dark brown, how damp went to ikea to run around, take pictures – we pretended not to speak english, it was like 9 at night, a lot of fun.. or when the Polish School i attended went on a dinner cruise around manhattan, everyone got dressed up, we partied all night, or when we randomnly had a beach day with my girl Jessica, who is now a freshman at James Madison University.. its crazy what we’ve done together – i grew up with a majority of the people who are in the pictures on my wall, they all most definately influenced me in who i am today, i owe them that. i’ve got pictures from weddings, pictures from vacations in Poland, pictures from when our closest group of friends has been reunited after coming home from our vacations, birthday dinners, beach days, ventures to the park, car rides, six flags, concerts – my fondest memories of the teen years, now that i think about it, holy shit, i turn TWENTY on may 12, TWENTY. i’m old. i need to learn how to pay bills, i need a car, i need a LICENSE, i need to learn how to be old. i don’t know how- i dont want to. i want to just be a kid, i want to stop time. i know one day i will read this blog, and laugh & cry at what i wrote, i know that day i will smile and think that i had it good, i like to think i’ll have it better in the future, scary to think about whats next.

learntolovelife; annakay.