only two days after my birthday & i’ve already got a good taste of what being an adult is.
perhaps i expect too much of people – but that’s on me.
my cellphone was raped the night & day of my birthday – it really did make me smile; it’s always nice to hear from people you haven’t talked to in a while – some of them years – & yet they managed to send over a simple wish of a happy birthday – i won’t deny being upset over a handful that i didn’t hear from – but everything happens for a reason.
i wanted as many of my close friends to come by & enjoy the night with me – i did my best to plan in advance – but apparently a little over a month wasn’t enough time. with a novel sent out to reconfirm reservations, attire, and all other details – TWICE – rearranging plans to make it convenient for everyone but myself, seems like no one really read what i wrote anyway.
i was hoping for an unforgettable, full of happiness & joy – amazing celebration – of my birthday, not that it’s any big deal – but i figured all my closest friends would be there so it was BOUND to be fabulous. i felt like i couldn’t relax – maybe it was my mind set – but i had made it a point that i’d like it for people to be there on time – reservations for 7:30 – i assumed my guests would try and get there a bit early, knowing that appetizers were ready to go when we walk in – i was wrong. i sat at my birthday dinner – at a table for 25 by myself for at least 15 minutes – at which point my best friend walked in – at around 8pm the rest of my party joined us..and my last guests didn’t show up till 9:40 – at which point i had already asked for the check.
i understand everyone has got their own things to worry about – but it thoroughly upset me – and everyone knew it after a few martinis.
hey remember when i invited everyone over to come hang out so that everyone could have a good time? they couldn’t make it – and he couldn’t come – and she had work in the morning…. thank you for telling me at the end of the night rather than at noon when i had changed plans.
it was all a mess. but perhaps i just took it to heart.
i appreciate my friends for coming & i am SUPER thankful for all the gifts. but a lesson has been learned that birthday dinners will no longer be a part of my birthday celebration. i’m never again planning anything in advance. i looked like a fool – high five to that – cause i guess that’s what i am.
on another note – thanks to my two lovebirds, i got to experience the most refreshing martini ever – & with shots on the house, we were like superstars – i hope my wish comes true.
i just felt super negative & i didn’t like it.
what a way to start off the year! – i guess that’s what i get though for attempting to not be superstitious and make plans for friday the 13th.
BUT it’s over now & i have an amazing summer to look forward to.
lessons learned & it isn’t anything to fuss about – even though i just did… hahaahaha maybe that’s why i already feel better.
i needed to vent & get this out without telling anyone individually – if i know my friends like i think i do – they know this rant is coming.
i love you all very much.
i apologize for being a bitch – if i was