my mind seems to be in a pretty good place recently, i’ve been keeping rather quiet, but focused – getting things done – i’ve had a lot to do this past week. day by day i’m clearing my head just as much as i’m learning – i’m realizing that the only true happiness i can attain – is the happiness i give myself
we had a project in my art therapy class on wednesday, our focus : mandala
according to dr. jung, the mandala is a representation of oneself – our task? to clear our mind and create whatever we want. traditionally, mandalas are rather symmetrical, but for this project, our prof told us to simply go with the flow – draw whatever we felt we wanted to, on a 36in diameter white piece of circular paper – she provided us with coloring materials, and we had an hour to relax.
i knew nothing about what a mandala was before starting this project, other than the fact that it was a circle – but i was excited to scribble and concoct this piece.
once our mandalas were done, our professor had translated them for us – there are twelve types of results:
(1)the void, (2)bliss, (3)labyrinth/spiral, (4)beginning, (5)the target, (6) paradoxical split/dragon fight, (7)squaring the circle, (8)the functioning ego, (9)crystallization, (10) gates of death, (11)fragmentation, (12)transcendental ecstacy
my mandala: stage seven, squaring the circle, it was wild to hear what this meant.
“this stage marks the full-fledged establishment of the ego. there is a strong sense of autonomy at this time. one has the ability to learn, plan, and love. because the ego is closely aligned with the self, an experience of inflation is not uncommon during this stage. we have incorporated within ourselves the qualities of each that are necessary for a fully functioning adult identity. sexuality that was diffused in earlier stages is focused toward genital expression. one is ready for a mate. we feel capable of initiating action instead of being the passive recipient of the actions of others. we are ready to DO and not just BE. the perspective is that of being on top of the world. consciousness is as bright and intense as the sun at high noon. thinking is highlighted and rationality is much appreciated. the task here is to put out best efforts into a quest: to find our soulmate, to identify our life work, to make a commitment. the squaring of the circle is the place where we take a stand on what we know within ourselves to be right. it is the beginning of our life lived according to our own values. behind the development of our individuality is the self, the dynamism that compels us to become who we were meant to be.”
it’s a bit crazy to think that my silly sketch revealed so much about me – and i agree with all of the information i received about my mandala from my professor.
i attended a 90s themed gathering last night. a group of close friends enjoyed the night dressing up, singing, and laughing. it was all a really good time.
today i was looking at pictures from the 90s. and it was really nice, i had a damn good childhood and i am living life right now.
i’m in a good place. i intend to keep it this way.